Verses of Tamara Hanenko

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To My Mother

... to my Mom Olga Batyuta

Mother,
You are my little cherry branch,
My silver marigold turned to grey.
Teacher of so many years,
You draw the night again with your white sleeve
Untill midnight above the school's white notebooks.

You come to see me off.
Your tear hidden under a smile
So desperately burns my soul.
I don't make bold to say about something cherished,
My head rests slightly
On your trembling shoulder.

I do not dare to kiss you
unless
A gentle breeze embraces us in its arms.
This garden, yard,
The shaded lilies of the valleys...
Our quiet paradise
Where my Mother is God...

 

You are necessary to me ...

... to You

As the drug to the addict,
You are necessary to me,
As air in a closed hovel,
As sunbeams to long dark winter days.

Up to the blood in my bitten lips,
Up to the nails, which press my palms in fisted hands,
Up to the animal melancholy of a body
saturated by my spent desire,
You are necessary to me,
You are...


 

Expectation Of Spring

... to John J. Burns, Poet

The sun trails me
through the naked small twigs of long trees,
Shades fix their flexible bodies
to white tailings of the tired snow,
Waterfall begins a quiet spring song.

A bird chirps lonely,
supporting the sky up with its little head,
black berries swing midst the silent whistle of the wind,
the smell of distant smoke soars.

Oh this long road to a spring!
My soul freezes up in a colorless world.

Twisted trunks of a frozen forest
reach for the Sun,

And Sun shines, dazzling ...

 

With a baby son
      (to Victor)

My hands are diving
In a white-white foam,
And rinsing
Blue, red, and yellow petals.

Two interested little brown eyes
Following me from a tiny bed.

A boy-moon peeping into window, -
Another snub-nosed, as my son is.

Guess told fortunes to me

In luminescence of stranger asphalts,
And lanterns which were indifferently quiet,
Fortuneteller predicted to me
A mountain of happiness and a well of sorrow.

Please conduct me, please lead me, my fate,
to the fields, where everything is green and cleanly,
Where poplars stand at the edge of way
And a guelder rose puts on a necklace.

Where ancient and oldest my forest
can not wait till I will come from road,
To a peasant's hut, where thresholds
Adjoined, as if puppies, up to earth.

Where stars falling down in darkness
Solemnly, like marital candles,
There I will accept from hands of fate without murmur
A mountain of happiness and a well of sorrow...

Cherry has blossomed out in snows

* * *
Cherry has blossomed out between us in snows.
Whether we to it should break off branches?
Heart presses from frosty singing time.

* * *
It is possible to melt ice
by my tenderness to you.
... and you asked me, whether I want you to have troubles...

* * *
I saw a rainbow in the beginning of January...
The morning sky was pink, with a tatter of gray-haired clouds.
Such a rainbow is now between us...


Please never be lost

Don't be lost, please never be lost...
Don't destroy me by it...
I had found you in precipitous roads,
I had gone through such the untouched world
To arrive to your simple 'hello!'

And on your threshold, as to guard you,
I will tear down bird cherry tree flowers
of a living branch I brought
from a charmed realm of farewells.

Treasure mine, please do not be quiet,
ask me something or just welcome by your
dark blue look, harbouring a melancholy in bushy eyebrows.

I retreat to a white sadness...

You will live and dream on your own way,
You, whom I cannot stop loving;
Let blossom to new bird cherry trees...
Let future days and pigeons to peck from hands...

But, you...I beg you,
please, never be lost...

NIGHT

Diptych.

***
Splashed violoncello
this night is.
This night, most tender from nights,
This night, gold with blue,
will say to nobody
what we were forced to hide in our souls.
In eyes we will bear it, -
luminous, but sad.
...Night sounds a violoncello.

***
This night with its alarmed look
mounts in a window.
It flows by gold letters
into my songs.
It shines to me by deception of white hands.
This unrepeatable night is asked
to repeat oneself...

To the River of my Childhood

Will you remember me, my Rastavycia-river?
You, - my old kind grandmother in waves-wrinkles,
And also - always young
Slender mermaid with dark blue eyes?

Well, sure you could not think about everyone,
Who's face you had washed ardently with your hands,
Trying with at least one water drop to wet,
To water well each and every heart.

But you were getting there,
Watering us into willows,
Such, that for you we have fallen forever...

A sprout of those willows
blooms still in my soul,
nuturing love in my heart,
taken from my very own village,
and its very own river.

I do not want to wake you up

***
Good as a lord, an icon can be drawn from him:
Such correct traits, and brows as a tar.
Time over casement is getting blue in hurry
To delineate shoulders of poplars.

All these will work not rub in the days,
this will never regain anon.
Soft love had left by accident for us
A chit of felicity in songs only.

I will drop into a morning's blue quiver.
Stay sleeping, my darling,
Please, do not wake up,
I emigrate from you
because
I afraid to break out your wonderful dreams.

Melody pulsates as bumble-bee

A sorrow settles in the heart
so quiet...
A wind mixes the
camomiles of hope up.
Some melody pulsates as
intimidated bumble-bee
Into glass-windows
of unbidden cold.

A herb of horses are rushing
through the gold ripe field
And the earth, thirsty for the love,
is praying.
The poplars are feeling
eary and mournful,
A gray moon-light is lying
on theirs temples. 

In the big blue world

The frightened summer runs away,
an empty dinghy is drying
on the sand.
We are lost in the big blue world,
The aurora dawns at a different time
for us.

Even sadness does not come
to be my guest.
Only memory hugs me
with its wings...
I was waiting for long
for fair weather from the sea
And so steeped down to drowsiness
by myself.

The Phone Call

A jadish snowfall hangs over my windows its shaggy chiton ...

Then - The Phone Call!

I hear that far velvety baritone,
and a spillover of your unique timbre.

Through a perpetuity and a roll of unconsciousness
into my sadness and happiness it's coming:
Unsensed eyes of snow blizzards,
and a spillover of your unique timbre.

That same your style
through white those worlds...
My memory waves with its aerofoil and swoons...
There are no walls...
only white blizzard,
and a spillover of your unique timbre.

 *   *   *                
I am in   hurry, all the time in harry
                 I’m in the indefinity of the river of my life
My worring  mother is standing near that river,
She puts all winds into my sails.
Her hear is grey, and she is sad,
I understand all that, I notice;
But I am running far and farther
From all my mother’s  seaports.

... Dreams...
Whenever, I pick my head from a pillow,
I leave you in my dreams
and my day depends on you;
depends on my last dream of you,
its design- sweet, sad, or neutral.
However, how neutral can one be
since you swim through my dreams freely,
as a deep fog through an uninhabited  valley.


Expectancy...
Your eyes are stars in the darkness of my passion,
Your smile, produced by so amazingly fu lfilled lips,
 rise up above the whole my world like sunshine,
                      or rainbow…
 
I feel touch of your hands,
I inhale your bitter body,
I feel your boyish thin shoulder-blades,
   which are, at this moment, dearest to me than anything in the world.
 
Expectancy of closeness with the person, desired for so long.
Happiness of expectancy,
Which may be richer than the closeness itself…